A couple weeks ago our church watched Louie Giglio’s “How Great is Our God” (here’s Part 1 and Part 2 of four parts available on YouTube). While I was watching it, it didn’t really hit me. But it did a couple of days later when I was at my life group.
Someone commented that God knows every potential decision we can make, and the outcomes of all those decisions–as if we’re self-aware pieces on a chessboard, and in the blink of an eye He has looked ahead to the ramifications of every move we could possibly make.
I used to feel that way too. But now I think this perspective is way too small.
Now I understand that the God who created this universe is very much bigger than our itty bitty decisions. Much bigger. So … if he’s that big, that great … then our decisions are so minor in the scheme of things. All of them, even the ones that feel huge and terrifying to us. And absolutely whatever we decide, whatever the ramifications, whether it’s a “good” decision or a “bad” decision … to say God is fully able to work it out is, like, the understatement of the century.
We’re like ants, like microscopic creatures invisible to the naked eye, compared to the universe God created. Yet He chooses to see and–if we let Him–be involved in the intricate, comparably tiny details of our lives. He has chosen to passionately care about these little humans (who think they’re huge), making tiny decisions in our tiny spheres of influence, on our tiny planet. It must be something like being man-sized and watching an ant struggle to carry a crumb. Then choosing to make yourself an ant for the sake of the other ants. Would you choose to become an ant? I wouldn’t. God must really love ants.
I don’t have words to describe the feeling of utter protection, of being covered and cherished more than I understand. And if this is all true, what do I need to fear? Should I agonize over decisions? For what? No matter what I do, even if I royally screw up, I cannot possibly stump Him.
It’s freeing. And I’ve written this as a reference point for myself, so I won’t forget how I’ve been set free.